This Brutiful Life

The last week has shown me that I needed to do some resting and recovering. My nervous system was showing signs of dysregulation, so I knew that I needed to focus on regulating it as much as possible. For the last 2 days, I have been very intentionally slowing down and doing the little things… Read more

When someone asks me what has been the most difficult part of the last 20+ years, it is hard to pick one thing. However, I will say that medical gaslighting is definitely in my top 5 of the most difficult parts of this journey. (Do a search for “medical gaslighting” if you are unfamiliar with… Read more

A friend and former colleague passed away yesterday after a 5 year battle with cancer. She was a phenomenal teacher and a wonderful person. We were texting buddies over the last few years since her cancer battle began around the same time that I needed to resign from my teaching position. I won’t be able… Read more

It has been another busy week. Mouth:The holistic/biological dentist from the neighboring state had me visit my regular local dentist to see if there was something else going on. The regular dentist was kind, but since cavitation surgery is not taught in dental school, he was very resistant to everything I have learned about the… Read more

Gratitude and grief are interesting. Gratitude is a constant in my life, but grief sneaks up on me when I least expect it. As the title of this blog suggests, life is simultaneously brutal and beautiful, but it still catches me off guard some days. It can feel weird to be both grateful and grieving… Read more

I don’t have any updates except that we are currently on the struggle bus. We are in the familiar situation where my doctors are all perplexed about why my body is doing what it is doing. My sinuses, ears, cheek, and teeth are still reacting to something. What is going on? There are a bunch… Read more