This Brutiful Life

Physical Health:
I have felt terrible from a physical perspective for the last 6-8 weeks. There have been quite a few days when I have been experiencing extreme fatigue, dizziness, abdominal pain, nausea, heat flashes (not related to hormones), migraines, and brain fog. We have been trying to build my body up and get my organ systems ready for treatment protocols for about a year now. We have hit a bunch of snags along the way, but I kept trying because I understood the importance of what we were attempting to do. Unfortunately, my body was not on board and was telling us that what we were trying to do was not working. So, after another discussion with my main doctor last week, we stopped quite a few things and are letting my body rest once again.

Home Building Process:
And so it begins . . . Haha! One of the items that we needed the builders to complete in a different way due to my health issues is now going to cost us an additional $20,000 instead of the additional $6,000 they originally quoted for it. We don’t really have a choice in this matter since it is something that we need to have done, so we are now needing to change some of our other choices to make room in the budget for this added expense. We planned for things like this, but we know that we still have many “additional costs” to go, so we are trying to be mindful that we are only at the beginning and need to make room for even more.

Oh, the joys of building a house while trying our best to accommodate an invisible complex chronic health issue. 🤣

Other than this, the process is going well. They have been kind and patient with all of our unique questions and requests, so we are grateful for that part for sure.

Emotional Health:
I am someone who will keep trying over and over again, so the fact that we had to stop what we had been attempting to achieve for over a year should tell you everything you need to know about how I have been feeling from a physical perspective. When this kind of thing happens, it makes me question myself due to all of the trauma I have experienced on this health journey. Knowing this, I have been extra aware of my thoughts and have made it a point to not believe what the past trauma is saying to me.

I have also been extra aware of any emotions and feelings that are coming up in order to make sure I am processing them in healthy ways. It has been a difficult time, but I am doing a good job of moving through it all and finding the small wins.

Other than the first of many “additional costs” in building our house, that process has been going okay. We are just taking it one day at a time in order to not become overwhelmed, and that has been working for us for the most part. We are continuing to do a good job of sticking together as a team. What I know for sure is that I married the best of the best!

I believed that I deserved the best when I met my husband, and that is what I got. Marrying him is the best decision I have ever made, and it is proof that I can trust myself and my ability to make sound decisions in other areas of my life. What a gift!


Brutal. Physical health lows. The first of many “additional costs” in building a house.

Beautiful. Marrying the best of the best. Trusting myself and my ability to make sound decisions.


Just another day of . . . This Brutiful Life: The Brutal & Beautiful Moments of My Life.