This Brutiful Life

I barely know what day it is today, but I am alive! Here are the updates for this week . . . Mold:The first phase (and hopefully last phase) of our home mold remediation is 90% complete. We didn’t have a lot of mold in our house to begin with, but my doctor has us… Read more

What have I been up to? I have been doing a lot of feeling, grieving, crying, laughing, smiling, listening, learning, giving to others, and resting. Our therapist reminded me this week that, sometimes, I need to sit in the mud. I am in the health journey trenches, and I just need to sit in the… Read more

Today is proof that I am not always smiling. (If you are confused, see my previous post.) I have been emotionally struggling for the last 24 hours. In an effort to be as authentic and transparent as possible, here is a list of the most common thoughts/feelings/fears I have struggled with on the difficult days… Read more

This week has been a mixture of ups and downs as usual. My parents are out of town, and they are allowing us to use their house while our house is being remediated for mold. We don’t have much mold in our house, so we are having to guess at which items (if any) will… Read more

The last week has shown me that I needed to do some resting and recovering. My nervous system was showing signs of dysregulation, so I knew that I needed to focus on regulating it as much as possible. For the last 2 days, I have been very intentionally slowing down and doing the little things… Read more

When someone asks me what has been the most difficult part of the last 20+ years, it is hard to pick one thing. However, I will say that medical gaslighting is definitely in my top 5 of the most difficult parts of this journey. (Do a search for “medical gaslighting” if you are unfamiliar with… Read more