This Brutiful Life

  • Hanging on by a Thread

    How should I describe the last few weeks? Difficult, to say the least. Functioning every day has been a challenge. I have been playing the not-so-fun game of trying to add in oxalate binders to prepare my body to start mold toxicity treatment once again. However, since I have also gotten IV iron infusions and… Read more

  • Everything Happens

    “Everything happens for a reason.” I used to say this quite a lot to myself and others, and I have had it said to me quite a lot as well. I know how I feel when it is said to me, and I have read about — and heard others speak about — how it… Read more

  • Brave

    I have no idea what I am doing most days. My life is the exact opposite of having a plan. I feel like I have done a good job of becoming increasingly comfortable with uncertainty over the years, but accepting the uncertainty is still a battle on my hardest days. I am looking forward to… Read more

  • You Are So Lucky!

    Over the last 20+ years, I have been told numerous times that I am lucky my husband has “stuck around” for all of this. Say what now?!? I am the first to say how grateful I am to have my husband in my life. He is literally the best person I know, and I am… Read more

  • Season 25

    I feel like I am in Season 25 of my life instead of Season 5, but this image still seems true: Here is the latest update . . . Physical Health:Here is a reminder of the tentative plan for healing and the parts that have been completed: We suspended mold toxicity treatment about 3 weeks… Read more

  • Pain, Waiting, Rising

    Glennon Doyle often talks about painful events in our life happening in 3 phases:  First the Pain, then the Waiting, then the Rising. The Pain phase of the most recent painful event in my life started about 6 weeks ago when I became aware that this blog was likely not fulfilling its intended purpose of… Read more