This Brutiful Life

Physical Health:
Last week, I had my 3rd SGB. [See my Onward post for more info on SGBs.] I had an additional side effect this time: eye drooping. [Side note: I won’t be posting a picture, so you can just imagine for yourself. 🤣] The rest of the side effects were not as significant for the 3rd SGB, so that part was much appreciated.

We are in a little bit of a holding pattern right now to see how my body responds to the SGBs and some other protocols, so I don’t have a lot of answers right now about whether or not the SGBs helped in any way. We have to wait and see.

My husband and I are currently in the process of sorting through next steps. One of those next steps is possibly switching to a different practitioner in the same practice as my current main doctor. Even though we feel like we are on the right track with my current doctor, it is sometimes helpful to get a fresh perspective. There are pros and cons to switching, but we feel like a second set of eyes in my case might be helpful at this time. We have been told that this possible new practitioner works closely with my current main doctor as needed, and my husband and I very much appreciate that collegiality. We have a free virtual meet-up with this possible new practitioner next week to see if she seems like a good fit. If not, we will likely continue with my current main doctor.

I also mentioned in February that one of the other supplemental practitioners in this practice (a nurse practitioner) is leaving, and she is the practitioner who prescribes my medications. She is starting her own practice, but she is going to continue to be part of my medical team. She says that she still has a great relationship with her former colleagues, so she is happy to still be part of my team. I am grateful that I don’t have to rush to try to find someone who understands the complexities of my situation and can also prescribe my medications.

Emotional Health:
I am nervous about possibly switching practitioners. However, I am also feeling energized about the virtual meet-up with this practitioner, so that tells me that the virtual meet-up is a good decision for us.

(credit: @the.alchemist)


In addition to the SGB and thinking through some decisions about the possible path forward, some other personal events have taken place that have been added to the emotional stressor category. Because of everything we have going on at once, my husband left me a note on my home workstation this week to remind me that he has my back.

He knows that I am a sensitive person who loves deeply, and he helps me remember who I am when life seems murky.

As I have stated many times, my husband and I are both actively engaged in our healing work as individuals and as a couple. We are the first to admit that we aren’t perfect. We are open and honest about the fact that we go to therapy to work on ourselves and our relationship, which is a clear indication that we know we are flawed humans. We make mistakes all of the time, but we actively try to learn from our mistakes, and we firmly believe in the importance of that. My husband and I agree that one of the main goals in life is to learn, grow, and evolve as people. If we aren’t evolving as we go through life, we see that as a huge problem. And, the uncomfortable truth that we weren’t expecting on this journey is that there would be shifts in some of our relationships with other people due to the fact that we are actively engaged in healing and evolving.