Sing in the Lifeboats

Physical Health:
[See my previous posts, Onward and Right on Schedule, for background info on SGBs.]

I was supposed to get my SGB this week, but we had the potential for bad weather in our area. We had to make a decision about rescheduling the appointment before we knew for sure which way the weather was going to go. Therefore, my appointment for the outpatient procedure was rescheduled for next week. I was grateful that I could reschedule for only one week later, but I didn’t really want to have to reschedule it. Rescheduling caused a domino effect of other items that needed to be rearranged, and I had to figure out my updated medication schedule given that certain medications needed to be stopped so many days prior to the procedure. It has been a bit of a cluster. I just keep reminding myself that most of this is not in my control, but I do get to control how I respond:

(credit: Marvin Coronel on FB)

I had an appointment with my main doctor this week, and he has even more qualitative data from his patients who have gotten a SGB for reasons similar to me. He said that one of his patients was down to only being able to eat 1 food, and he also wasn’t able to complete any treatment protocols. After completing his first SGB, his immune system allowed him to eat a few more foods and to start a tiny bit of his treatment protocol. My doctor is even more optimistic than he has previously been about the SGB after gathering more information from many of his other patients around the world. Of course, it is possible that it won’t work for me, or that I will need to do the procedure multiple times before there is improvement, but I am choosing to hope for the best possible outcome.

Please pray and/or send positive energy that everything that needs to happen prior to the procedure actually happens, I am able to get the procedure completed next week, and the procedure is a success with no complications. I would love a win!

Emotional Health:
I keep reminding myself that needing to reschedule my SGB was maybe a sign that next week is better timing for some reason. That is my hope, anyway.

For the most part, I am used to living with a large amount of uncertainty. I am used to things needing to be rearranged, rescheduled, or changed altogether. One of the ways that I live with all of the uncertainty is by remembering to sing in the lifeboats.

I don’t prefer to live with so much uncertainty (who does?!?), but I think that I do a great job of being in the present moment and finding the joy whenever possible.

I also have a very strong spirit.

(credit: @andreagibson on IG)

This doesn’t mean that I don’t have bad days or that I don’t cry or that I don’t get angry. It just means that I am resilient in the face of uncertainty.

And, on the hardest days, I remind myself that I have mastered the throat punch if needed.

And, sometimes, that little reminder is all it takes to make the day a little better. 🤣

Brutal. Having very little control over what happens.

Beautiful. Having control over how I respond to what happens.

Just another day of . . . This Brutiful Life: The Brutal & Beautiful Moments of My Life.