Decision Fatigue

As I stated in my Pivot post, we are in the process of gathering information about possible next steps on this health journey. There are a lot of decisions that need to be made, and I am feeling quite a bit of decision fatigue. As a result, I continue to focus on simply doing the next right thing. The good news: I only have to make one decision at a time, I am good at gathering information and listening to my intuition, and I have a great support system in place.

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Here is the latest update . . .

Physical Health:
I am happy to report that I was able to get the second dose of this round of IV iron infusions during the week of Thanksgiving. It went well, and I am grateful to have that completed for now.

We had an appointment last week with my main doctor, and my husband and I continue to have a lot of information to sort through as we contemplate how to proceed. We are still planning on running more tests to get updated data. I completed these same and/or similar tests in 2020 and 2021 with a previous doctor, but my main doctor and the complementary practitioner in his current practice both think an update would be beneficial. We won’t have the results for 5-9 weeks due to the timeline of completion and several other factors beyond our control. And, as I stated previously, these tests are not covered by insurance.

The rest of the pivoting is still being determined. There are 3 possible paths for moving forward. None of the decisions and/or paths are straightforward, so we are currently giving ourselves time to process the various options.

Emotional Health:
What I am feeling the most right now is gratitude. I am truly grateful for everything that I have. The fact that I have decision fatigue means that we are currently making quite a few decisions. And, making quite a few decisions means that we have options on this health journey. The feeling of gratitude comes from knowing that we have options, and not everyone has options like we do.

However, since I am feeling fatigued from needing to make quite a few decisions, I know that I need to continue to focus on prioritizing myself and having self-compassion.

I have also been relying on my support system as much as possible. My husband and those closest to me have been extremely helpful in recent weeks.

I am fortunate to have some reliable people in my life who consistently show up for me.

I have also needed to repeatedly process some topics with our therapist, and she has allowed me to work through some topics approximately 582 times. 🤣 I sent this image to her a few weeks ago:

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I keep reminding myself that when life is confusing, and I find myself in the middle of a twist or turn, I may be embarking upon my finest hour.

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Thankfully, my husband and I both have a good amount of paid time off around the holidays, and I am very much looking forward to enjoying the time together without the added stress of our wage-producing jobs. I can’t wait!

Brutal. Processing a lot of information at once. Decision fatigue.

Beautiful. Iron infusions. Giving myself time to process the information coming at me. Trusting myself. Self-compassion. My amazing support system. The possibility of embarking upon my finest hour. Paid time off around the holidays.

Just another day of . . . This Brutiful Life: The Brutal & Beautiful Moments of My Life.