I have had a few blog post topics swirling in my head recently, but none of them seemed right for today. Basically, my heart is super tender right now, and when my heart is tender, I don’t have any desire to share my story. There are some days when the authenticity and vulnerability I require of myself in writing this blog are not possible.
However, I can be authentic and vulnerable about the fact that I am currently working through many feelings and emotions. I am a sensitive person by nature. I feel things deeply, and I view this trait as my superpower. I wouldn’t be the person I am without this trait.
I am fortunate that many of the people who are the closest to me in my life also view this as my superpower, and they appreciate and value this part of me. Being highly sensitive becomes a challenge, though, when the world is dealing with a lot. And, our country is also dealing with a lot. And, our community is also dealing with a lot. And, those closest to us are also dealing with a lot. And, then of course, my husband and I are dealing with a lot as usual. It feels never-ending right now, even though I know that isn’t true.
Suffice it to say, I am currently in the “messy middle” of working through my feelings. Due to the level of hurt and pain that my husband and I have personally experienced in the last few months, I am being very intentional about working through my feelings in healthy ways.
Due to the depth and breadth of the pain we have recently experienced, I am finding that I have little patience for the rest of life’s shenanigans. And, the rest of life is “life-ing” as usual. None of us get a break from life.
As a result, I don’t feel like I am doing a great job in any of my roles right now. I am a former teacher and usually have an endless supply of patience, so my current lack of patience is rare. This lets me know that it is time to give myself a little extra love.
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And, since my mind is turbulent, it is important for me to remember these 3 things:
I am also making sure to take extra time to do some of the little things that hold such big healing power:
In addition, I am making sure to utilize my support system.
Thank you to those of you who have shared kindness with us. We appreciate you!
I imagine that there are quite a few people who are going through a tough time right now, so I hope this post will help at least one person. Please know that you are not alone.
Brutal. Life.
Beautiful. Life. My sensitivity superpower. Feeling the healthy range of feelings and emotions. Giving myself extra love. Small acts of kindness from others.
Just another day of . . . This Brutiful Life: The Brutal & Beautiful Moments of My Life.
This Brutiful Life 