Sitting in the Mud

What have I been up to?

I have been doing a lot of feeling, grieving, crying, laughing, smiling, listening, learning, giving to others, and resting.

Our therapist reminded me this week that, sometimes, I need to sit in the mud. I am in the health journey trenches, and I just need to sit in the figurative mud. I don’t need to try to do anything but just be. I need to allow myself the time and space to just be. No pushing forward, no trudging ahead, no working on myself. Stop and grieve and cry and nap and let myself be in the hard place for a little longer.

My natural way of continuing on regardless of the circumstances has its place, but resting and sitting in the mud also has its place.

I always try to get out of the mud as fast as possible, because I don’t like sitting in the mud. But, I do know that it is needed at times. She also reminded me that I won’t be in the mud for long; I won’t stay there forever. She has known me long enough to know that I am not a permanent mud-sitter (🤣). After I sit in the mud, I can get back to redesigning my DNA, freeing myself of ancestral trauma, and mastering my soul lessons.

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Part of sitting in the mud for me is being in nature. Being in nature allows me to slow down, remember who I am, and give myself a break.

One thing my husband and I have been dreaming about since staying at my parents’ house for the last 4 weeks is having a screened-in deck. We know it will be expensive and probably won’t be able to happen for a while due to medical expenses, but it is something that we have really enjoyed over the last 4 weeks and are interested in adding into our lives at some point. (The image below is where I have been sitting in the figurative mud this week at my parents’ house, and it has been such a gift.)

Brutal. Being in the health journey trenches.

Beautiful. Sitting in the figurative mud when needed. Resting. Nature. Screened-in decks. Sunshine. Dreaming with the husband.

Just another day of . . . This Brutiful Life: The Brutal & Beautiful Moments of My Life.

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